Someday we'll know I never meant for you.

I miss looking at guys when there was no sexual desire.

term

rewriting something but unable to really express myself, with how people should know me is kinda privilege that I dont have yet. Being homo is somehow kinda depressing especially when you have dual identity. not sure when exactly would I have to be myself, without having to mask myself for being something else.

I wish I was born differently.

email.

one of my former classmate send an email few days ago, asking whether Im still considering to visit her. it was about time, i need to consider time for myself. Ive been really stress with rile of work that have been plundering non-stop since last year. Maybe it's a great time for myself, liberates from this agitating and daunting non-ending-task of life.

anyway, she has a cute brother. heheh

k bye.

Im updating this from library

of justin bartha

and then ive realized, my kinda guy is not six pack hyper masculine...



Justin Bartha, if you happened to read my blog, email me pls?

hell is hot wherever you'd be.

its been a while i didnt write anything here. ive been doing absolutely nothing to search for the sanguine that seems unable to appear despite my soul and body long for. a bit dramatic for a start, right?

no, I kid. not really doing nothing. ive been studying for my second journey to search for the never ending commodity knowledge. if you've been wondering how study have been, its equally lonely journey just like how my life have always been. 

i've met my friend two days ago. well, i was in town and she was just there. we decided to meet for a while and exchange some thoughts on mid 20s life.

she told me Im no longer a virgin.

and I slowly whisper Im gay, who do you think will go to hell first?

we continue talking about the never ending life.