I dun really have problem in life, to be honest I dun really any problem to get what I want. As matter of fact, I dun really need anything in life. Everything that I need has suffice and throughout time, I never really ask anything for more right after prayer. Maybe, I did ask to have excellent result, not to inherit any disease and god forbid to have any terminal disease. and so far, i never gotten into any.
but, life is not about a good life.
As I mention before, i've been neglected by my friend, and bad enough I couldnt share with anyone. Let alone with minimal friend that I have. I dun really share my problem with anyone, since i dun really have bestfriend. I did have one, however eventually, I dunno, I dun think an interdependence relationship is healthy for me.
Hence, I decided to go through life, on how I want it to be. Alone and strong, and I wonder why it didnt rhymes?
anyway, recently I've discovered my mom hates me more than ever. Im kinda thankful to my father after few years he decided to stop all discriminatory policy. Nevertheless, for my mom nah, I think she still hates me to bits. Now I know, where the blessing had gone. Sometimes, i personally its unfair to go out and left me alone, well I still remember, whenever we order pizza, there will be few slice left for other family members, however when it comes to me....
you see the only left over will the box in the dustbin. its kinda sad, however after a while, I think my heart conditioned to it. I guess affection can translated by silent treatment? after a while I decided to stop talking to everyone in this house. together with my friend, since I couldnt foresee any significant on doing it.
you know, if happened to be you're gonna build a family DUN EVER EXCLUDED YOUR KIDS. TREATS EVERYONE EQUALLY. CUZ YOU WONT KNOW THE SIDE EFFECT IT.
nevertheless, that just life.
if u ever need someone to talk too, you know, Im always here.
pls, dun use your imaginary. it has taken me toll to forgo it.
and trust me, its not healthy.
just live your life :)
